Abu missing

Tadi abu hilang. Aku cam hilang akal sekejap.

I was mad. And i was so scared. This mixed feeling really not helping. I was tired. With things going on, abu missing and its not a small place to cover. It was a shopping mall. Far from home.

Aku sedapkan hati. Abu will come back. Tapi, bila sampai rumah, i was left alone. All those unhelping thoughts meletup letup dalam kepala.

Like i've lost a child or someone i love. I felt empty like a hole inside my heart. I cried because i miss him. I saw him in every single thing i see.

I see abu sit on my laptop.

Abu running upstair.

Abu in every cat i saw.

Abu on my bed.

Abu's voice meowing.

Even abu's shit smell nice.

Then, mama balik. Mama ajak cari abu. 

And there it was, abu. Dari jauh lagi dah nampak. Aku je yg nampak rupanya. Mama n babah sibuk tanya mana. Aku cakap, sana! Sana tu! Aku kenal abu. I know him well. Even his smell and his movement.

Dia tengah nak bergaduh dgn kucing 'abg kawasan' situ. Terus aku ambik dia. Dia still lagi mood takut or marah. Not sure. I end up get a scratch at my right eye.

I don't really care about my eye actually. As long as he is safe.

Lesson learnt. I'm no longer will rasa menggelabah like this anymore.

Just, please people, jgn takutkan aku like,"nnt dia kena langgar kereta" "kesian dia lapar" "dia xboleh survive hidup kat luar". Just don't. I was scared enough. U guys were not helping.