I've been in love for like almost 7 years now. When I thought this wouldn't happen, but it is happening right now.
I think I'm in love with my own boyfriend.
Serious aku malu nak admit benda ni. Selalu aku cakap aku sayang dia. But am not gonna blog about it. Tapi..... sumpah aku rasa bodoh sekarang. Wth. Am stupid for him.
Aku mengaku, tahun lepas aku selalu terfikir, what if aku bosan dengan dia? Since aku dan dia dah almost 7 years in love tapi baru 4 tahun kitorang betul betul bersama. Selalu aku dengar orang putus bila dah couple lama lama. Punca utama, bosan sebab dah terlalu lama bersama. Itu belum kahwin lagi.
Tahun lepas aku banyak marah dia. Mungkin aku yang dah bosan. Aku hampir meletakkan penamat dalam hubungan kitorang. Tapi, walau macam mana aku marah dia, aku masih tak boleh hidup tanpa dia. What is this sick thing happening to me? Tamak?
Tapi kenapa awal tahun ni aku betul betul sayang dia? What is happening to me??!!
Mungkin bila dia nak pergi jauh, baru aku sedar apa perasaan aku. Manusia, bila hampir kehilangan sesuatu baru nak hargai. Damn it. Nasib baik aku tak terlewat lagi.
Lepas aku nangis malam tu, baru aku sedar aku betul betul sayang dia. Kalau tak sayang kenapa nak nangis?
Mamat ni memang menyusahkan hidup aku! Menyusahkan tapi membahagiakan. Damn. Damn.
Tapi aku harap perasaan ni akan kekal selamanya. Sampai aku mati.
You know what, perasaan aku sekarang ni almost the same like the one masa aku sekolah, masa aku pertama kali jatuh cinta dengan dia. Perasaan excited, sabar tunggu dia reply mesej, seronok bila dia reply, sebelum tidur tengok gambar dia, call each time ada masa, excited dengar suara dia walaupun dia just cakap hello etc.
Did you know I just dreamt that I'm pregnant with his baby. And our baby looks just like him but in a baby version. I swear to God that he is super cute!!
Its not wrong to fall in love with my own boyfriend right? Its not like I'm stealing someone's boyfriend.
You're mine and only mine, All rights reserved.
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