Nothing hill

I was a different person.

I always push people away when they want to be near me.

I cry late at night thinking if there is someone (or at least animal) to be there for me.

When i was happy, i really wish that it lasts. 

I care too much about people that i started to hurt both parties.

I was so scared that i annoyed them (i still do) but i was actually annoying them by scared that i will annoyed them.

I don't trust close friends but i trust random people.

I speak what i want but not what i need.

I am now, trying to be better by trying not to think much. But i still do have those insecurities. Except, now i have friends that didn't judge me. And I'm really grateful to know them.

Anddddddd, i think i still do have all those criteria. Except, i have stop crying late at night and stop trusting random people.