Dear Mr. Angel, I'm so sorry that I can't be part of u. Till now i'm not sure why u came to me but I am so grateful that u came to me. I've tried so many times to accept ur existence and be part of ur life but my heart wasn't listening. I know that i'm not perfect as any other girls and i know i'm not that good enough for u. But Mr. Angel, I know that u'll accept me the way i am. As the time goes on, u've showed me a world which is very different than mine. A world that i called fairytale where prince charming come and save the princess and we'll be happily ever after. But i'm not that princess. I'm not going to be waiting my prince to come and save me while i'm relaxing in the bubble bath tub. I'm not.
Dear Mr. Angel, do you wanna know why i call u Mr. Angel? Because u really made a few of my dreams came true and u also gave me presents which until now I'm not sure how to repay u. U gave me happiness, u'll always be there during my joy and sadness, u also have heard my laughter and my cry, u've shared things that no one else share. The reality is, u are to good to be true and i've started to realize that. I'm a person who believes that joy comes along with sadness which makes me afraid to be too happy. And it happen to be true with my baby. I'm too happy for their existence but i don't know that losing them is like losing my life and i've been down for a few days and maybe a few more weeks as my emotion is still unstable because i love them so much and now i should be ready for my next loss.
I should leave u now and pray for ur happiness. Thank you for gave me chance lived in a fairytale. U gave me too much happiness that i'm afraid to accept. If i don't leave u now, i'm afraid that i'll give u hopes that i'm not sure if i can fulfill that.
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